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Sunday, August 27th, 2006
6:58 pm
Kinda Feel Bad...
I have been drawn to Kali for the longest. "Random" things in my life that eventually let me know that she is the goddess that protects me. But lately I have been pushing myself away because I don't identify with Indians or the Vedic religion and I didn't want to. I don't want to identify with any Religion at all. But then I read "Feel The Pull" and saw sassenach1970's comment, I felt bad. If Kali chose me, why am I pulling away?

Current Mood: contemplative
Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
11:46 am
Hello there, and greetings to all! Anyway, I know this sounds like a provocative question, which is why I've never asked it before... but why exactly do some followers of Kali Ma sacrifice children?

I know Kali isn't an evil goddess, she is simply life and death, encompassing both the light and so-called "dark" apects. From my personal understanding, Kali teaches people to abandon their egotism and learn to appreciate everything in life. I used to be a Pagan, you see, and my experience with her was absolutely beautiful. I'm not sure if the feeling was real or if it was a surge in chemicals, i.e. serotonin.

However, be assured that I rarely drink, I have never smoked and have never touched drugs for recreational purposes; I've only taken pills for boosting my immune system against malaria and other travel-related afflictions.

I mean no offense when I express my skepticism about my experience with Kali, but for the past year or so, I've leaned more towards atheism, and I'm not quite certain whether my subconcious came to the surface (i.e. Jungian archetypes), if it was wishful thinking, or she really did contact me.

I hope people don't find my post offensive, but I'd appreciate any feedback as to why these people feel the need to sacrifice children to an often demonized and misunderstood goddess. When Westerners hear or read these reports of children being abused/sacrificed in Kali's name, it doesn't really help their understanding of Hinduism, nor do the reports fully explain Kali's role in the universe. It kind of bugs me when newspapers or encyclopedias write Kali off as "wife of Shiva. Goddess of death." It's funny how some fundamentalists demonize Kali, yet they happily worship a selfish vicious deity who has no qualms condemning his creations to hell for the rest of eternity, just for being different or having different beliefs. :-)

On a light-hearted note, Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom is one of the dumbest films ever made. It's good trashy fun, but the deliberate ignorance/ridiculous portrayal of Kali makes me laugh. The script is hilariously awful, too, i.e. a young child-miner says, "I pray to Shiva to save me." Lol.
Monday, May 2nd, 2005
3:47 pm
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Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
3:04 pm
thoughts needed
I've been a follower of Kali for quite some years now, last Saturday I was attacked by a guy at the nightclub I frequent. Having had a history of terrible things done to me by men, I was feeling helpless and alone. None of my so-called friends have done anything to help me, or even acknowledge the fact it happened. I was despondent, and before retiring for the ight, I asked Kali what should i do and who will defend me if not my friends?

I had a dream, so vivid and incredible that I will never forget it. I've only had one other vision of Kali, and she smiled at me and said she did not know who I was yet. Until tuesday evening, that is.

In the dream, I was standing in a candle lit circle inside a temple made of Gold, I could hear a rumbling sound, and I thought to myself, sounds like Kali thunder. No sooner had a I thought this, than suddenly a woman dressed in a red Sari appears before me with her back turned to me. She turned to face me and she smiled, and tilted her head to one side, she started walking towards me, and as she did she kind of rolled her hips with each step and i could hear a little bell chime each time her foot landed.

She began to talk to me of the elements, and walked me to the four quarters of the circle and introducing me to each quarter. When she was done she walked me back to the centre of the circle, where again she turned to me and smiled. She produced from behind her back a HUGE sword shaped like a scythe almost, the sword had a wooshy thing at the end, anyways. She turns and faced me and began to speak. " You ask who will protect you, It is I who protect you" and then with her sword she drew a huge flaming pentagram before me and kind of drew it down from the top of my head, till it was directly at eye level with me, then she reached through the centre of the pentagram and put her hand on my chest, huge sparks of white/red/yellow flames shoot from her hand into my chest, and I remember gasping and looking down, and I was consumed by flames.She then smiled at me again and said " you ask who will protect you, it is I who protects you" I gasped again, becuase it was the most intense rush of..something I had ever felt. I jerked myself awake, and didn't mention it for a day or so...I didn't know if it was something I should talk about, or if anybody would even believe me.

The question I have is this, does it sound like she made contact, or was it just wishfull thinking?
Thursday, March 10th, 2005
2:04 pm
Feeling the pull
I was in the Wiccan community for a couple of years, but have been drawn to a much more eclectic and esoteric path in the last year or so. Lately, I've been feeling a very strong pull toward Kali and I have been completely obsessed with and engrossed in research on her. I've been pushing for a class on general Hinduism all year (with limited success, unfortunately) just so that I can learn more about her.

The problem with this, is that I don't know if I want to devote myself to any one particular Goddess. I'm not Hindu; I have never been Hindu, and I don't plan on becoming Hindu at any point. I feel very strongly that if I'm not part of a particular tradition, I shouldn't be coveting thier deities. However, there has been this consuming obsession with Kali and a strong self-identification with her.

Has anyone experienced anything similar? I'm beginning to question my resistence, but I don't want to feel like I'm being rude to the Hindu pantheon by simply appropriating one of its members.

(Btw, I'm new, sorry. I'm a college student in Sarasota, FL persuing a major in Religious Study and I'm hoping to be a Professor in the future.)

Current Mood: confused
Thursday, January 20th, 2005
11:29 pm
Good eve,
I am doing a paper on the worship of the Dark Goddess and have recently come across this list. I thank you for the knowledge you have imparted so far and ask if anyone knows of any websites or books that might help me out some more.

thank you
Saturday, January 17th, 2004
2:56 am
I have a question and I want you to be HONEST in your answer. THINK about the questions.

What is your religion/denomination/spiritual path etc?

Why did you choose to follow the particular path you follow?

What makes your path different from the millions of others?

What comfort/peace/security etc does it offer you?

Think about yourself as a person, and how you follow your religion and what it offers you, do you think someone that is the exact opposite of you could find the same peace that you do?

Most importantly, how do YOU as an individual define the idea of "evil" as compared to the general definition of your chosen religion? Where does evil come from and why does evil exist?

my answersCollapse )

this is x-posted to just about every religion/spiritual community on LJ, sorry if you get this like 400 times on your friends page!

Current Mood: contemplative
Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
3:44 pm
Jai Kali!
The Shakti Cause aims to create the first working matriarchal state in India. Our goals for this new state, once formed, are to promote education, spirituality, and most of all, female empowerment. We are supporters of human equality, but we are focusing on the importance of women. For the creation of this Shakti state, much work will need to be done.

Monday, September 8th, 2003
2:27 am
just wanted to share my little poem with y'all

invocation to Kali

dark mother
who walks in crematoriums
who dances with the dead
hear my prayer

black darling
whose touch annihilates
feed me with your breath
heal with your scent
your devotee, your daughter

Current Mood: quixotic
Tuesday, March 11th, 2003
12:23 am
Hello all - I just joined, having discovered the community through a friend. This is great! I have enjoyed the posts so far as I've seen nowhere else which discusses this aspect of HER on LJ...

Quick background on me - I have been raised by a very open family who taught me to inquire into all semantic symbols & forms of deity. As a result I am a student of comparitive mythology and religion, and am pursuing theurgic training via the A.'.A.'. I have loved Kali for several years, for she wears my severed head about her waist, so to speak, for I have dedicated my life to the Black Mother in all her forms - BABALON, Nuit & Kali being the most common contexts of applying sexual alchemy through Vama Marg Tantra.

Looking forward to participating...

Love is the law, love under will.
Sunday, July 28th, 2002
12:12 am
::sings:: She Will Cut Off Thy Limbs...
Hi, I'm new here.

I was inspired tonight... Please don't steal this. I'm actually rather proud of it. I usually dislike my Pagan songs.

She will cut off thy limbs.
She will cut off thy limbs.
She will cut off thy limbs.
She will cut off thy limbs.

She brings destruction.
She brings creation.
She brings confrontation.
She brings liberation.

We ca--ll to thee…
We ca--ll to thee…

She is the Mother.
She is the Crone.
She dances in freedom.
She brings you home.

She will cut off thy limbs.
She will cut off thy limbs.
She will cut off thy limbs.
She will cut off thy limbs.

She brings destruction.
She brings creation.
She brings confrontation.
She brings liberation.

We ca--ll to thee…
We ca--ll to thee…

She is the Mother.
She is the Crone.
She dances in freedom.
She brings you home.

She brings you home.
She brings you home.

Current Mood: accomplished
Monday, July 1st, 2002
9:28 pm
celebrating our inner bitches
I'm new to this community... hi everyone!

Kali provided the inspiration for my user name. I believe she should inspire all of us to embrace our inner bitch...an aspect of our womanhood that is sidelined far too often.

All praise the Bitch Goddess!
Thursday, January 17th, 2002
12:24 am
quick question
What is the name of Kali's blade that skins the people? It's has Ganesha on it in his war-elephant form.

Thursday, December 13th, 2001
5:58 pm
Hello group
Hello group,

I just recently joined this community. I am a Pagan, and starting about last year I have been draw to the image & to information about Kali. I am reading up on Her and the mythology surrounding Her.

As my opening question - how do some of you define your relationship with this Goddess? and what is it like being in a relationship with Kali for you.

I don't have a real relationship with Her yet, since I am still searching for my connection to Her.

Blessed Nightmares,
Darkfire Wolfe
Thursday, August 16th, 2001
2:56 pm
from: The New Book of Goddesses and Heroines by Patricia Monaghan

In Hindu India, all goddesses are ultimately one: Devi, whose name simply means the goddess. Bur she takes different formsperhaps a way of allowing limited human minds to fix on first one, then another of her multiple possibilities. One of the most powerful, most common, and to Western eyesmost terrifying of these forms is Kali (Black Mother Time), the goddess who perpetually transforms life into a fascinating dance of death.

Her tongue juts out of her black face; her hands hold weapons; her necklace and earrings are strong w/ dismembered bodies. She seems at best a stern mistress, this Shakti (animating power) of the creator-destroyer Shiva, the dancing god. As Durga, Devi is personified as a just warrior, purging the world of evil; as Parvati, the same energy exemplifies passionate attachment to sexuality. But as Kali, the goddess is uncompromisingly alone, the mother of death that swims in her womb like a baby; she is the force of time leading ever onward to destruction. And then, when she has destroyed everything, Kali will be the timeless sleep from which new ages will awaken.

Kali first manifested herself when the demon Daruka appropriated divine power and threatened the gods. The powerful goddess Parvati knitted her brows in fury, and from her sprang three-eyed Kali, already armed with her trident. This emanation of Parvati quickly dispatched the demon and made the heavens safe again. Once born, this goddess remained in existence, beyond the control of even Parvati (of whom, it must be remembered, she is an aspect).

Several famous myths tell just how uncontrollable Kalis energy is. Once, it was said, she dared to dance with Shiva, the Lord of the Dance. They grew wilder and wilder, more competitive in their dancing, until it seemed the world would shade itself to piecesand so it will, for beneath all appearances that dance continues. Another time, it is said, Kali fought and killed two demons and celebrated her victory by draining their bodies of bleed. Then, drunk with slaughter, she began to dance. Thrilling to the feel of lifeless flesh beneath her naked feet, Kali danced more and more wildlyuntil she realized that Shiva himself was underneath her and that she was dancing him to death. The gods tactic slowed Kalis wildness, but only for the moment, and eventually she will resume the dance that ends the world.

Kali is still one of Indias most popular goddesses: her picture hands in many homes, her name is familiar in Calcutta (Anglicized from Kali-Ghatt, or steps of Kali, her temple city). Served at one time by murderers called thuggee (from which derives the English word thug), the goddess of cemeteries was thought to thrive on blood; most often, however, goat rather than human blood was sacrificed to her, and it is still poured out in some parts of India today.

So terrifying do these bloody rites seem that few understand Kalis spiritual significance. As a symbol of the worst we can imagine, as the most extreme picture of our fears, she offers us a chance to face down our own terror of annihilation. Ramakrishna and other great Indian poets sang rapturously of Kali, for they understood, these mystics say, Kali frees her worshipers of all fear and becomes the greatest of mothers, the most comforting of all goddesses.
Wednesday, July 11th, 2001
7:29 pm
Saturday, January 20th, 2001
3:29 pm
Thursday, January 18th, 2001
8:34 pm
Kali is the destructive aspect of the goddess. She is usually pictured as a black goddess, for time has no color. The string of arms around her waist represent the lives that are born again and again in the cycle of reincarnation or samsara. She holds a cup in which she has caught the blood of the head she has just decapitated. But Kali's raised right hand is in the mudra "Be not afraid." She is dancing on her consort, Lord Shiva. One interpretation of this image is that after the goddess slew the buffalo demon, she got drunk on its blood and started to destroy indiscriminately and with wild abandon. (Remember, the problem is not power, but how to keep power under control.) In an effort to calm her, Shiva lay down and let her dance on him, bringing an end to her rampage.

Current Mood: I need my Shiva
7:16 pm
* Kali Dasi * by dossie easton
Black skin, Scarlet tongue
Hard feet horny trample me
Beloved, Destroyer, my Mother
Your skin eats light
Utterly round Your hips
I sink in Your breasts, infinite softness
Hanging beneath the skulls of men
Your arms trap me implacable
In the language of crows You
Open me up You
Tear me down

Tigress sweaty over me, Your fur scours.
You turn me over, buffet me,
Spread my legs with Your great paws.
Your claws, sheathing and unsheathing,
Knead my flesh, spilling little streams.
Scarlet Your tongue, bright like persimmons
You lick salt in my wounds.

Your huge tongue
In the language of frogs
Rough like starfish
Licks my cunt, sucks me dry:
I am not ready.
I try to offer myself but You allow
No will, no reason:
I am not ready.
I am Yours because You take me.

Tails of snakes enfold me, muscles
Wrap my limbs, crush my chest, I cannot breathe
Your rattles in my ears are all the sound of the Universe,
Deafening me.
Where Your rocks meet Your waters in thunder
Your cliffs are dangerous, my Lady
Your tides turn stones back and forth, clicking
Shaman's rattle, diamond back,
Demon Mother, Killing Moon
Eclipse me in Your infinite darkness.

With shining steel nails on fingers and toes
You lift me, shake me, split my skin
Spill my life in sticky red streams and then You
Let go.
I land empty
Dry and rattling
I have forgotten that I am.
I must be

Current Mood: Unworldly
Wednesday, January 17th, 2001
12:33 pm
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